I have been trying to read both for school and for personal enjoyment/interest for almost three weeks now and it has been very slow going. Mostly in bits and pieces, after slipping into a book I come to a point where I remember that I have forgotten - just for a moment - and I get upset. Upset that I had let go for that moment and then upset that I am getting upset over something that is probably for my best interest (escaping for a bit that is).

Reading is slow going and the writing of this paper is even more slow going. Not because I am unsure what to write because I have left it too long or because I can't get my ideas to fit together in an articulate way - but because I am unable to actually sit for longer than an hour. It's the same idea as above. ONE good thing that has come from this experience though, is that I have discovered a pleasure in re-reading and reading slowly. School and my own ambition has gotten me to a point where I can finish a novel in 3 hours. Extending the time for composition and editing has also been good and I am more satisfied with the first 3 pages of my paper (that I have re-written in it's entirety 5 times now) than I have ever been before.

An aside note:
I am now offically a fan of Hawthorne. And for some reason I am kicking and screaming in my head against this idea - hence the public declaration. The 'adult' part is reining the 'childish' part of my self in ... if that makes any sense. Although I LOATH his "Scarlett Letter" (a 1/10 on the Maxie Scale) everything else has been thought-provoking.